First things first, some answers to a few frequently asked questions. Thank you all so very much for asking, my dad is doing fine! After staying with Mr. Diva and I for about 8 months, mom and dad moved back to their house and are doing great. Well, great is probably overstating it, but they are good. 2007 was a hell of a year. And a year ago at this time we were right in the thick of it all. I hope I never ever have to have another year like that again and I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. The memories are very vivid and do slap me in the face sometimes. But everyone is much better!
To answer another often asked question... yes I am on MySpace, Facebook, LinkedIn (I have no clue what I'm doing there, but a friend invited me and I accepted so there I am! lol) and I do have a blog (although it's not about AMC or soaps at all, it's about cooking mostly).
Now, on to the important stuff. I think you'll all really like what I'm listening to while I write today. I've got Darnell Williams, Pure Satisfaction; David Canary So Many People; Ruth Warrick Phoebe Tyler Regrets; Louis Edmunds Nobody Cares About Langley; and Soap Sessions Volume 1. OK ok... I'm not really listening to those things. But I do really own them all. Darnell and David's are both lps. That's vinyl albums for you youngins. Ruth, Louis and Soap Sessions are cd's. I'm actually really listening to: Peter Murphy Unshattered; Bauhaus Go Away White; Interpol Our Love to Admire; Sisters of Mercy Floodland; and The Best of the Damned.
This Editorial will reflect the shows that aired from April 14 thru 18. It may or may not discuss some upcoming spoiler.
Despite all his issues in the past, Ryan has never gone to
a shrink until now, when he can't remember all those issues. That seems
a little 
odd
to me. But whatever, at least he's there now. Apparently she was some
famous shrink, Dr. Gail Saltz, who I never heard of. And while I'm no
shrink, I thought her advice to Ryan was pretty stupid and pretty unprofessional.
Basically when Ryan told her that he was starting to remember his relationship
with Greenlee but not Annie yet, she told him that maybe he didn't remember
Annie because he never really loved her and he's only remembering the
fiery passionate relationships he's had. Wouldn't it be more logical
to suggest that Ryan is slowly remembering things as they happened and
not suggest that he never loved his wife at all!? Ryan got defensive
about it, but the rest of the week he kept flashing back to those words
whenever he saw Annie. And Annie is not helping at all! Ryan asks her
to describe how they fell in love and Annie's recap really does make
it sound like maybe he never really loved her. It's bizarre. She tells
Ryan about how she almost slugged him with a fireplace brush when they
first met and how she shot him. She tells him how they never really
dated, but were thrown together because of Emma. She's really painting
a romantic picture isn't she? She tells him how he was her hero over
and over again and helped her through crisis after crisis. She tells
him how he asked her to marry him before he ever said he loved her and
how it was she who said she loved him first. Gee Annie, your sentiment
is making me weep. Despite all this Ryan is making every effort to get
to know Annie again. He's probably curious to find out what qualities
in her other than her incessant neediness drew him to her in the first
place. Maybe Ryan will learn more about himself through all this and
realize that he loved being her hero more than he actually loved Annie.
I actually did like Ryan and Annie, now I'm not so sure. How and why
did they really fall in love? I hope Ryan finds out because now I want
to know too!
On
to another couple that doesn't really love each other... Aidan and Greenlee.
Aidan gets moody whenever Kendall is brought up. Acting like that is
not real affective when trying to keep the boink secret. But the guilt
is eating away at him. So much so that in a strange fit of who knows
what, Aidan got the brilliant idea to propose to Greenlee. Guilt proposals
are always a great idea. Greenlee initially plays it smart and turns
him down, saying she wants to keep things fun and light and just how
they are. And suddenly Aidan morphs into the worst kind of jackass.
He's moody, he's pissy, he clears out the romantic picnic he packed
for Greenlee and leaves her at the beach to stew. Of course, Ryan calling
her in the middle of his proposal didn't help. He could tells she wanted
to answer that call really bad. But Greenlee being Greenlee, when she
gets nowhere with Ryan and realizes that he doesn't want her back, she
decides that Aidan's proposal sounds like a good deal so she sets out
to seduce him into asking again. He does. She accepts and decides that
she wants a big hooha ceremony for Aidan's sake, since he's never gotten
married before. Aidan would rather elope then go out for fish and chips
and stout. Greenlee doesn't care, she knows what's best. After all,
she knew what was best for Ryan when they married and we all know how
that turned out!
Later with Tad, Aidan gets all twitchy again at the mere mention
of Kendall's name. Aidan is probably the worst secret keeper other than
Kendall herself. Tad notices, as does everyone 
else,
and tells him to spill it already and tell him what the devil is going
on. Aidan has to tell someone before he completely loses his mind so
he unloads on Tad and describes the most unromantic tryst this side
of Dimitri and Maria. He describes how if there had been a knife there,
Kendall would have used it on him but instead they had sex. Whatever!
Tad tells Aidan that if Zach ever finds out he will kill him. And of
course, as they are discussing how Zach and Greenlee will never find
out, Greenlee walks in and wants to know just what it is she's not going
to find out.
And unbeknownst to Aidan, Zach knows about the grief boink so when he goes to see Zach about a job Zach had offered him as head of Cambias Security he finds that Zach is aloof, sullen and morose. But since this is his general personality anyway, Aidan doesn't really know that this mood is actually directed at him and acts easy and breezy, telling him he's changed his mind about the job and now that he's getting married he wants to be a better provider for Greenlee. Zach's anger at Aidan is very clear to everyone watching except Aidan, but Zach gives him the job anyway.
Well now, let's back up to the big Kendall/Aidan reveal. Zach knows. He's put all the pieces together based mainly on Kendall's jittery behavior and Annie's slip of telling Zach that Aidan was at her place, drunk and said to Kendall that they shouldn't still feel guilty. To me it seems like an odd conclusion to jump to. Kendall gets wonky whenever Aidan is mentioned + Aidan said they shouldn't feel guilty = Kendall and Aidan slept together. But then again, Zach does know Kendall better than anyone and I'm sure he knows his wife is capable of strapping a saddle on another man and riding him off into the sunset (wow that has to be my most bizarre euphemism for sex ever! lol). So he knows. He's just waiting for her to tell him. And she's ready to tell him. It's constantly on her mind whenever she sees Zach, or Greenlee, or Aidan. And pretty much those are the main people she sees daily. It beats in her head like that heartbeat in Poe's The Telltale Heart. The guilt is tremendous.
Kendall arrives home after visiting Erica in prison and telling
her mother that she is going to tell Zach. Erica is very much against
any kind of honesty so she tries desperately to talk Kendall out of
such foolishness as telling the truth. But Kendall is determined and
as she walks in the door and sees Zach across the room, the two flashback
to everything that has lead up to this moment. It's a great recap to
all that's 
happened
and a great beginning to this weeks SCENE OF THE
WEEK. Zach is hoping his wife has finally decided to be honest
with him and encourages her along. But Kendall doesn't really understand
that he is doing that and instead makes small talk about Jenny's birthday
party and whatnot. But as they circle each other Kendall starts to tell
Zach just how she felt while he was gone. How he was gone for a whole
month in the freezing cold and she tried so hard to stay hopeful, but
there was no hope left. She tells him that she thought she lost everything
and gave up. She was left with nothing but despair. Zach asks her point
blank, "What did you do?" and she finally responds, saying
the words she should have said months ago, "I slept with Aidan."
Zach's response filled Kendall with confusion. His reply was, "I
know."
Kendall can't imagine how Zach would know and forges ahead with her tale of woe. She tries to explain where she was at, emotionally, believing the love of her life was dead. She wanted to die herself and Aidan felt the same. They reached out to each other in that pain. Zach tells her he understands that, but he doesn't understand her not telling him the truth. He tells her that the betrayal was not sleeping with Aidan, it was not being completely honest with him and he wants to know when it was that she stopped trusting him. Oh ouch. That had to hurt. All this time Kendall's guilt is about the infidelity but Zach doesn't at all seem concerned about that. She keeps saying that she thought he was dead. Zach delivers a blow when he says, "But I wasn't dead, I was fighting to get back to you."
Kendall doesn't know what to do so she takes Zach to the cabin in the woods where she and Aidan did the deed. She wants him to see how totally unromantic the place is. Nevermind that she's also taking him back near the place where he was stuck in a hole for a month, this is all about Kendall. She can't worry that she might be dredging up some horrible memories for Zach. She has a conscious to clear dammit. But Zach being the guy he is lets her do what she has to do. Kendall is beyond consolation now. She knows Zach wants absolute trust and she did not give that to him. In her hysteria, Zach takes her by the hand, tells her everything will be alright and then takes her home. Zach tells her that he will not leave her. He tells her that nothing can destroy them. But when Zach is alone later, the pain he's feeling is very evident. Those few scenes, alone in his office were enough to get Zach this weeks PERFORMER OF THE WEEK award. All the other stuff was great too, but it's those scenes where he lets his guard down, when no one is watching (but us of course) is when we see the true extent of Zach's feelings.
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